Indian Summer

I woke up early this morning to realize today is the first day of summer. It was an interesting moment after watching The Future is Unwritten, a documentary film on the life of Joe Strummer.

Strummer was the stage name of John Graham Mellor, and most know him as the co-founder and lead singer of the punk rock band The Clash

Stick with me here…..

So I’m reading about Strummer on the Internet, and one particular article ends with his quote not long before his death at age 50:  “This is my Indian summer….I learnt that fame is an illusion and everything about it is just a joke.  I’m far more dangerous now, because I don’t care at all.”

It’s too easy based on stereotypes of punk rock to read this as he no longer cared about anything.  From what I saw in the film, at the end of his life Joe Strummer cared about a great many things, but had figured out how to honor those things completely and “not care  at all” about fame.  In fact he seemed to have spent many sequential years struggling to regain himself from the soul-grinding fame machine, not surprisingly after The Clash “made it” in the United States.

Note to self: If you simply must hit the big time, try to do it in France.

I had no idea Strummer was such a comprehensive human being.  I’ll be thinking a lot today about “not caring at all” about the wrong things.

The Barn

I discovered Ryan Russell when my husband gave me the painting “Barn in Ground Fog” as an engagement present several years ago.  (A similar painting is shown on the gallery link here.)

Our barn hangs in our living room, a reminder every day of the shelter and  home that is our relationship.  I plan to say a lot more about The Barn and what it means in my life, through my marriage but also my friendships.

For now, I just want to share the image and the idea.  I’ve been up since 3:30 a.m., concerned about a lot of things that are not stable and secure in my world.  But I’m here writing downstairs under the calming shadow of The Barn, both the painting and the love.

He’s resting peacefully upstairs.