My relationship with Mamaw was one of the best things about growing up next door to my grandparents. It’s difficult to think of her now, since her passing has only been just recently. My heart aches when I think about her and I miss her more than I thought I would. In many ways, I was like the daughter she never had. Mamaw was my security blanket. She was my homemade quilt, frayed around the edges, but always comforting. In many ways she was a complex woman. Highly private and somewhat socially awkward, she was the matriarch of our entire family. Being the eldest of seven, her job of caretaker followed her throughout her years. She was a supreme worrier, and was able to conjure up bad happenings better than anyone I ever knew. But where Papaw was inconsistent, Mamaw was consistent. Always.
Not only was Mamaw my neighbor, she was also my elementary school cook. I was fortunate enough to be with her at school every day at Loundendale Elementary. School was another extension of home and I felt like we owned the place. I was privy to places (like the kitchen) that other students weren’t allowed to go. If I started feeling poorly and was sent to the clinic, I had instant sympathy beside me to make me feel better. (Except when I was faking sick, and she’d sternly look at me and tell me to go back to class!) In Kindergarten, my entire class called her “Mamaw.” This upset me so much that I didn’t want to say her name out loud at school. She was my Mamaw and I certainly did not want to share her with a bunch of other kids! As I got older, I realized that having her at school was sometimes good and sometimes bad. Good on days when we had mashed potatoes (an extra helping for me) and bad when I occasionally got in trouble (guess who took me to the principal).
Mamaw was well-known throughout the family and the neighborhood for her homemade hot rolls and cinnamon rolls. There was no recipe, just lots of hard work and love put into everything she prepared. Many times I watched her work her magic by turning a little Hudson Cream Flour, eggs, sugar, yeast, and condensed milk into a small piece of dough and roll it around on the kitchen countertop and, ta-dah!, the most perfect little roll of dough you could ever imagine would magically appear. Twenty four of those little dough balls would go into the oven and a few minutes later, a smell would waft down the hall that would make anyone’s mouth water. When the bread was done, she’d take it out of the oven and my job was to brush each roll with melted butter. I can still remember the sound of the butter when it would sizzle on top of those rolls.
There are so many things I learned from Mamaw that I don’t think I would have learned had I not spent so much time with her. She taught me how to tie a quilt (it is really the ugliest quilt you’ve ever seen—polyester stripes and patterns, brown flannel backing—it is referred to now as the “Tacky Quilt” but I made it!). She taught me how to make lye soap, and what a science experiment that was. Lye soap could take the paint off of a Buick! She tried, really tried, to teach me how to make her famous homemade bread. I failed miserably since I didn’t understand how to “feel the dough” to know when it was right.
Mamaw taught me other things too. She taught me to always be prepared. Whatever the situation, Mamaw could pull whatever we needed, from a wet washcloth to a cough drop, out her huge purse. She taught me to save my money, but to spend it too on important things—not trinkets or toys. She taught me to be compassionate, especially for children who had less than I did. She taught me to always put my family first. She taught all of this by example, not in words.
My grandmother and I developed quite a close relationship over the years. We would sit at the kitchen table and talk for hours about nothing in particular, sometimes talking about several different things at once. Every spring we would go to the farmers market and buy entirely too many flowers—marigolds, pansies, and impatiens–and wonder where in the world we would plant them all. In the spring, we would count down the winter days to welcome spring at Watt Powell Park to be the first in line on opening day for baseball season. Sometimes the cold spring air coming out of South Park hollow would make our teeth chatter, but Mamaw would fix a thermos of strong hot tea for us to sip on so we could cheer the Charleston Charlies, and later the Wheelers, and finally the Alley Cats, to victory. We would read books, Anne of Green Gables, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Heidi, and talk about our favorite parts. Sometimes she would tell stories about growing up just around the hill on Mt. Alpha. She would tell me stories of how she met my grandfather and how he called her “chicken legs” when he saw her walking down the road one day. We spent a lot of time together and I wouldn’t have had that opportunity had she not lived so close to me.
I’m sure my childhood would have been wonderful without living next to my grandparents. I had, and still have, the best parents anyone could ever have. I have a funny brother who saves lives for a living (a fireman—of which I am so proud). I had a wonderful home, pets, good schools, vacations at the beach and camping. But I really can’t imagine my life without having grown up beside Mamaw and Papaw.
Last April I received an urgent phone call from my brother. Mamaw was in the hospital. I heard the words “fatal” and “aneurism” as his voiced cracked to tell me the news. I dropped everything and drove as fast as I could to the hospital to see her. She had been having a hard time remembering things and getting around, but the thought of her dying just would not register in my brain, even though she was ninety one years old.
When I got to the hospital, I went directly into her room and knew in my heart that she was dying. As I sat there with her alone listening to the beeping and humming of the machines, I held her hand and told her it was going to be okay, even though I knew it wasn’t. She never opened her eyes, but I had to believe she could hear me. I thanked her for all she had done for me, for all she had given me, for being there whenever I needed her. I talked to her about our special times together and the memories we had…and then I watched her take her last breath.
It sounds so strange to say, but I’m glad it was just the two of us together when she passed. I’m humbled that I was there to hopefully give her peace in her final moments on earth. It was the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do, but I will never regret being there for her one last time.
As I continue my online research into my family’s past, I see my parents, my grandparents, and all my family in a different light.
I see them now as children running through the creeks and hills.
I see them as young adults falling in love and building a home.
I see them as parents and grandparents wanting the best for their children and grandchildren and all generations to come.
And I see myself…….
Making a good life for my future generations and passing on the best of my childhood memories to them.
(This concludes Growing Up by Christi Davis Somerville. See Parts 1, 2, and 3 of Growing Up in the previous posts.)
6 thoughts on “Growing Up (part 4) by Christi Davis Somerville”
This is so lovely–I, too, had a Mamaw and a Gwennie–though I wasn’t lucky enough to live next door to them. But they still had an enormous influence on me. I hope to have that kind of impact on my own three grandchilrden.
I’ve enjoyed these “Growing Up” stories so much. My grandmother had one of those expandable houses, no matter how many relatives there was enough room and food. I was very honored to be with MaMa when she passed.
I’m so glad you enjoyed these, I really did, too. Grandmothers are amazing people in our lives!
I also lived within 10 miles of my other grandparents…but, that’s another story!!
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These are simply wonderful. It beautifully illustrates the general experiences of growing up West Virginia…with generations of family within earshot. My husband had similar experiences and while her grand-parents are not next door, they are close enough for my daughter to have already had (at age 4) a lifetime’s more memories with her grand-parents than I did in all the years I knew mine.